Bad News.

Hey Fellow Directioners!

I've got bad news.

It's okay though. Not about the boys. More about me.

You'll see.

Love
EmEm
xx

Who Knew? Long Authors Note

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I'm sorry I can't hear you over the harps the angels are playing in heaven. Cause you know. I just died.

I cannot believe you guys. I mean, even though I am probably the worst updater in the history of updaters, you are still reading? What? And all your comments about updating and me needing to update… They literally light up my world. I have no idea how else to thank you. You are ridiculously amazing and I owe you so much.

I am so so so sorry for not updating in ages. If you read my other post on this blog you'll see why. Sometimes the roller coaster we call life just goes a bit too fast that you have no idea where you are at this point. It's pretty much whats happened lately.

Everything is just going on and on and I'm just trying to keep up with everything. But at the same time I'm scared that the waves will be too strong and will pull me in to a point where I can't come back. I really do love the boys and I love my internet life. But things like parents, expectations, obligations and responsibilities has to take priority. If it was up to me I'd spend my days on the internet, sadly no one made me Queen of Everything. So I gotta deal.

I'm not complaining, know that, I mean I am complaining bout the fact that I haven't been able too update but that's not what I meant. I meant that I'm not complaining about how things are the way they are. I know that at one point there will be a time where I am in complete control of my life. I don't have to worry about disappointing my parents, I don't have to worry about passing my test, I don't even have to worry about missing the latest gossip on our boys. There will be a time when that happens.
However while that time is still coming, I'm stuck with what I've got. And that's fine.

All I'm saying is I really do hope you understand why sometimes I don't update in a couple months. Most of the time it will be because I have something else to do, most likely it will be something about school. Sometimes it may be because I have no inspiration on what to write. And maybe sometimes I just don't feel like it. Any of those reasons are fine. You know why? Because I am a human being. A teenage girl at that. I have a life and my readers and stories have no control over what I do.

I love you guys and I love what you've done for me and my story. Really I do. I never imagined it would get this far and I'm profusely thanking you for proving me wrong.

From now on I do plan on taking this story to a new level and I have a few things in mind that I'm sure you guys will get surprised at. I can't wait to continue this journey with you. <3

Hugs and kisses,
EmEm
xx

Little Miss Seventeenth

So this is the first post in ever that is actually about the boys. 

Don't worry I am still a hardcore Directioner. It's just, I've been a bit out of touch lately as you all know.

Yeah a lot of things did happen but I won't be able to write about everything. However, from now on I will be keeping you up to date of drama and my opinion of everything.

So yep! NExt drama I will be posting about :D

xx

Margarette

Little Miss Sixteenth - I can EXPLAIN!

Hiiii Guys....

Okay so basically I have been MIA from this blog for 3 month and to be honest with you I do have a reason. A perfectly legitimate reason.

Okay so the last time I posted was around 23 August (It was actually, exactly 23 August, I checked) and around that time the school term was ending meaning that there exams, tests and assessments flying everywhere. SO obviously i was very busy.

The following week i still could not post because I was just unwinding and relaxing after all the unnecessary stress that school gave me (don't listen to your parents kids! School is bad for you!). So obviously it was just healthy for me to you know, just unwind and relieve myself of all the stress. Also it was the week of city experience which is where you and your class goes to the city for a week of school instead of doing normal classes. They said the point of it was to get us used to the real world but I don't think they know that 80% of the kids at school spend their free time in the city... Anyway… So we got ready for it and were put into groups, told the rules, shown the boundaries and all that blah-di-dah stuff.

It actually turned out to be an amazing week and I loved it! Yes sounds exaggerated but remember the 80% of kids who spend their free time in the city? Yeah I'm part of the 20% that does NOT spend their free time in the city. I know. Sad.

So I was actually pretty busy during that week because of the same reason that I have been completely MIA for. I will soon tell you that reason.

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LOL Jokes. I'm just going to tell you. But bear with me cause it gets quite confusing now.

So another program that my school has is a student exchange program with Italy. I love travelling and I love Italy so it made sense for me to go. Actually, the moment I decided to go to this school and saw their brochures and promotions and stuff, I saw the exchange program and immediately asked my mum to go. She said yes because she is a super mom (yes I did just say that, #DontJudge) and she is cool like that okay? Okay.

SO it turns out that after City Experience week, literally just the day after, I was heading off to l'Italia! Yup. Ikr? No rest for lil ol' me. It was literally the Saturday right after the friday of City Experience.

So that is why I was so busy that week and why I couldn't go on the last day (It was mainly reflections and worksheet stuff anyway so I didn't want to go in the first place! XD) of City Experince week because I had to spend that whole day doing last-minute packing.

Those are the reasons why i couldn't post right after my last post.

The reason that I couldn't post like months after my last post is because of the Italy trip. Can I just say though that I am going to need a completely new post about that trip because it was just AMAZING!

Okay so I come back 3 weeks after I leave which is like on September 14 and we came back on October 4. Can I just say I've never actually experienced jet lag but after coming back from Italy… All I can say is jet lags a pain in the bottom.

I was sleeping when I shouldn't be and I was awake when I shouldn't be… My eating tie was all messed up and I was zoned out for 75% of the time. Yeahh… Real pain. And then after that I had to catch up with everything, get back to my normal routine… ANd since I basically had no internet most of the time…. I kinda got used to entertaining myself without internet.

Horrifying I know.

But… That's not the only reason why I couldn't post. I mean. WHat jet lag lasts for 3 months?!

So one of the main reason is school.

It's the end of the year which means exams. The bloody exams that I have to hardcore study for for at least 1 week. At least. These exams are big time because they're end-of-year exams. But that's not it. My lovely and wonderful mother has also threatened promised to take away ALL One Direction if I do not get above 4.5 GPA. So yes. I had to work my bum off to study for those damned exams. WHich obviously took away a majority of my time.

Another reason is that… bum ta da dum!!! It's CHRISTMAS!!! 

And this year is uber special because we get to go back to Philippines for a HUGE family reunion! YEAHHH! But. This also means spending a humungous amount of time looking for Christmas presents. ANd we all know that not everyone is a size 7. Therefore I have spent a lot of time shopping, not for myself sadly, but for this special holiday season.

So yeah. Now you know the reasoning behind this and hopefully you do not get too mad. After all, I can't exactly help it!

xx
EmEm

P.S Expect another post in about 1 hour or 2.

Little Miss Fifteenth

Hiya everyone!
I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT!  I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT!

I knew ZERRIE was real!

YES! They're engaged! Ohmygod!
I actually don't think it's sinked in completely yet because, idek why it hasn't sunk in yet but it just hasn't? Anyway. Here is another video that I've made because I found that I enjoy making these videos! :)
Anyway, hope you enjoy!

Love

EmEm

xx <3

Little Miss Fourteenth

Hey Guys.
This is just going to be a full out rant because you  know what? I'm so sick of it. i'm so sick of not being there when the boys do something amazing and incredible.
At this very moment they're setting up the premiere to be watched by a whole tons of girls. Excluding me. I'm not assuming or anything but I'm betting there will be at least ten girls there that have just started to 'love' One Direction. I'm not being mean and I hate calling out Diretionators but this time I feel like it's just not fair anymore.
I hate it. I absolutely completely hate it. I hate not being there when the boys are making a huge appearance. Want to know why? Because I hate not using every moment I can to show them how much I love. To show them how much I support them in everything to show them that I don't want to be just a fan. I want to be their fan. Only theirs. Yes, I listen to other music. but none of those lyrics will ever sink into me like theirs do.
Did you guys know that when I was 12-ish I was a Belieber?  Yeah. I used to be so 'in love' with justin. But no that I look back on it, I never bothered to make a twitter account to know what he's up to. I never made a blog dedicated to him. I never made fan fictions about him. I never even knew what his mums name was or where he started or when his tours are. I couldn't even sing his whole first album. All I knew where a couple of songs.
Now that I look back, I compare myself as a Directioner to myself as  Belieber, they don't even compare. Not even in the slightest.
Zayn, Liam, Niall, Louis and Harry have somehow managed to screw themselves a place in my heart without even knowing me. They've managed to engrave every detail of themselves into my brain without even seeing me at all. They've done all that without even realizing I exist.
How?
Don't even try to ask me because to be honest, I haven't got the slightest clue. All I know is they did it.
It's not just because they're hot or cute. Yes they could make me melt with a single breath, but they're more than that. Their voices are beautiful. It may not be beautiful to everyone, but to me... It's like cool ice water running through a burn on my skin. I can listen to them all day long and never get tired. I can hear them talk, sing, laugh, scream, cry, shout and I still wouldn't mind. Their voices calms me no matter how hectic life is getting, their voices, rejoice me no matter how crappy life is getting and only their voices can do that in most cases.
I would say that I have no idea what I'm going through right now, but I do. I know exactly, what I'm going through.
I am so proud of them for getting to where they are now. For going after their dreaming and overcoming every obstacle they're faced with. I am so happy that they're living their dream because it's the least they deserve! They've worked so hard and so persistently that I am just dumbfounded at what they've achieved. I'm so over the moon at all that's happened in the past few years. I know that even if they have never and/or will never know I exist, I know that I will never regret ONE MOMENT of being in this fandom. This fandom that we built from the boys from the stairs. This fandom that we've built together with the boys. This fandom that is now my second family.
But at the same time, I don't feel so happy. I feel like some mother watching her son go off to college. I miss them so much. I know that they're there but, I miss them joking around about being with each other, I miss them being able to just walk out and not get attacked, I miss them doing twitcams, I miss them on twitter. As much as I am so proud and happy of them for getting so far. I wish that our fandom and the media and fame in general hadn't changed them so much.
And don' even bother sending the hate. They've changed and you know it. I know it and everyone knows it. But that's the key.
EVen if we know they've changed, even if I know they've changed... It doesn't change on thing for me. They are still my boys. They are still singing, they are still One Direction. I will still be up late hoping for a follow, I will still update my blog hoping to get noticed, I will still cause my fingers and hands arthritis trying to type so fast to get my tweet noticed. All that won't change. I will still be in love with them and I will still be here for them.
I know that I am sounding crazy right now. Tbh, I know I'm sounding crazy. But atm I am on the verge of crying because noone in my family knows what I'm going through today, none of my friends no what I'm going through today and XFactor is playing out loud on the TV and tbfh with you it's too much. I can't deal with it.
"The band that lost the XFactor, but won the world."
That is so accurate. They did lose XFactor, but they won so much more than that.
I've actually lost all energy now and i'm just going to cry under my blankets until 2 am. Where everyone is asleep while I stay up, knowing I have school tomorrow, and watch a livestream of 'This Is Us'.
Why?
Because This Is Me.
EmEm
xx

Little Miss Thirteenth

Well Hello There!
Yep I know I'm a bit late in posting but stupid Youtube took ages to upload my vid so yeah. Kinda sad you know. Anyway. So here is my video. I don't really care if you agree, disagree or couldn't give a potato about what I think. This is my opinion and mine alone.
THanks all!
BTW I'd like to make a shoutout to @ziam_aka_life for helping me with catching up to what had happened. Thanks for that!
Okay no more talking. Here you go.

I really like what I did with the thumbnail and if you want the photo of it here it is. :D

Okay that's it for now. THanks guys hope you enjoyed and that you spread the word around about my blog! Love you all!

Love

EmEm

xx